This took me a long time to write. I would like to say that I was busy (which I kind of was) but the truth is I had no idea where to begin or what to say. I wanted to write something that was deep and meaningful or witty and funny. I landed on writing something honest and hoping that at least one person found it interesting enough to look away from the current Snapchat filter of the day and read til the end. Let’s start by saying this, I am not a model. I am not even a person who likes to post gratuitous selfies in my bathroom mirror. TBH, that is partly because I don’t like taking pictures of myself and partly because I live in fear that someone will notice how long it has been since I cleaned my shower. But nonetheless, I went on this boudoir journey. I found Lindsay through a friend of a friend on FB and decided that I wanted to see if she could make me look like the obviously professional models she had already shot. I hope you, reader, know I am kidding. Lindsay makes everyone look like the goddess/model they truly are. It is incredibly difficult to be a woman these days. If you are strong and outspoken, you’re bossy… a bitch. If you are quiet and understated, you are uptight… a bitch. And don’t even get me started on the thin line we have to walk between slutty and modest. With all this in mind, I felt like I needed an excuse to take the pictures. They would be a gift for my future husband! Tada! See, its not really for me, its for him. The running dialogue in my head was that it was completely narcisstic and conceited to spend money on myself. And then to have pictures of myself hanging around my home?!?! I’ll never live this down with my girlfriends. In retropect, I should have worn my decision with pride. There is no joking about the experience the day of taking the pictures. Not that it isn’t fun or even at times funny, but I don’t want to make light of it. Lindsay and Erin are warm, kind, generous and completely comfortable with someone parading around in stilettos and little else. Their generous nature made me feel so comfortable that I was almost able to ignore my inner neurotic, trying to scream through the whole time. She broke through only a little when I couldn’t stop a slightly quivering lip. Lindsay assured me the camera couldn’t see it and she would make sure any glimpse of my nerves would be edited out. Once I was done I left feeling accomplished and excited. I also left with a full face of makeup and my hair done so I was feeling good and looking even better. Insert the raise the roof emoji here. Then, I slowly deflated. I had seen Lindsay’s pictures and I couldn’t possibly look as good as those women. Could I? They were skinnier, prettier, professional, more confident. I am so glad Lindsay does the reveal. I can honestly say that I almost didn’t recognize myself at first. Not because the photos didn’t look like me but because I couldn’t visualize myself to be as beautiful as Linsday had captured me. Lindsay assured me it was, in fact, me and that was the person she saw. Let me just say, if I had all the money in the world, I would have wallpapered my apartment with those pictures. I’d put them on my dishes so I could find me staring back from the bottom of my cereal bowl after my fruit pebbles were gone. It is not gratuitous and narcisstic to go through this experience. It is empowering. I stopped making the excuse that I did this for my husband. (Although he thoroughly enjoys the photos, as well.) I did this for me and for every burger and ice cold beer I continue to consume. I don’t need to be a certain size or have a certain skill level to look like the women Lindsay shoots because I am one of those women. I am in the company of a group of women who have made the conscious decision to love themselves and to surround themselves with photographic evidence of their beauty. Thank you Lindsay and Erin, you are truly special people with amazing gifts. I know I may joke, but this is worth EVERY PENNY. In fact, I am sure that if we did the math, I owe these two more. They have given me an invaluable gift. The gift of self-assurance and confidence in my own body. I am not sure I could ever repay you. - XOXO
I’m not sure what I’m about to write or the direction it will take; but what I do know is that I am excited to share a little bit of me; what this experience has meant to, and done for, me; and the emotions that have run through my body since the moment I stepped through Lindsay’s door.
I have a tattoo on my back that means self-confidence, I got it to remind me there's no reason I shouldn't feel confident or secure in my body and with the person I am, but there are many times since I got this that I have...too many times in fact. However, this experience has reminded me of why I got it and I can honestly and wholeheartedly say I have never felt so strong, confident, happy with who I am, and proud of the person I am and the way I look. So much so that I want to show it off to the world.
I took a few big steps in doing this shoot, some I knew I was taking and some I did not realize I was.
For me to share personal feelings about myself is one of those big steps. I have a tendency to keep things inside. I don’t want people to know the bad or struggles I face or see the insecurities inside. I was always worried I'd be seen as weak or ridiculous for feeling how I felt. But when something makes me feel as incredible as my session with LRP has I want to shout about it from the rooftops and share everything with everyone.
A boudoir shoot is something I have wanted to do for a very long time, no one knew this, it was just one of those things I knew I’d love to do someday...someday when I felt I was physically ready to. No doubt I was ready physically at other times, but not in my eyes. I’d even pose in the mirror and envision myself doing it, but never actually made the leap to do it. I know partially because mentally and emotionally I wasn’t ready and also because I hadn’t found the right person to entrust and expose myself to both physically and emotionally. When I found Lindsay and looked at the work she and Erin do I was instantly in love; I felt they themselves and their work were breathtaking. After reading what all the incredible women were feeling and doing and the journey’s they had been on to get there themselves, it put a fire inside me. I had to be part of such an amazing group of women. I had found the people who could bring something out in me I had wanted to show and felt for so long.
So, I had to do it; I had to just book my session, stop making excuses why I couldn’t. I knew with LRP I was in good hands and could do anything. I just felt it. I was beyond excited from the moment I did.
I decided I was going to give the end product to my fiancé for Christmas, but ultimately this was something I was doing for me, the experience was for me...and Oh My God was it the experience of a lifetime. Life changing!
I planned to keep the fact I was doing this to myself till after I did it, I wanted it all for me, but that only lasted a couple days till I had to share, my excitement was too high, so I told my mom and a friend. It was what my mom said that really opened my eyes; she was shocked that out of her three daughters I was the one doing this. She also told me how incredibly proud she was of me for doing this. In my eyes though I was the one who was most likely to do it; it’s something I had wanted to do for such a long time, I had even wanted to get into modeling when I was younger; but she doesn’t see me posing in the mirror at home, however, what she has always seen are my insecurities, she's one of the few people who I have always shown or expressed them to. I just never realized to what extent.
I have always been very judgmental of myself; telling myself I couldn’t do something, wear something, or show something, till I felt ‘perfect’. I’ve always been insecure about certain parts of my body; particularly my legs. There is nothing wrong with them and I see and know that now, but I have always had fuller thighs and a butt. And I didn’t like it. It bothered me. I wouldn’t even put on a bathing suit at my folks pool because in my eyes my body wasn’t perfect. I didn’t like this, I didn’t like that...and I didn’t want to show it, not even to my family.
What I heard from people was “you’re so thin”, what I saw was full thighs, cellulite on my legs, a bloated belly...how could I show that?!?! I was ashamed. I thought everyone would be so critical, not believe that I worked out, see the real me, and not like what they saw. All crazy thoughts I know, especially to think my family or fiancé would think this, but they were my thoughts and I knew there really wasn't anything to be ashamed of but it's how I felt and I couldn't get over it. This has gone on in my head my entire life, no matter who said what, whether it was family, a love, or friend.
After my session I was telling my mom all about it and the excitement was pouring out of me. She was still surprised I did it and still incredibly proud of me. I admit I am surprised and proud of me too. But this experience has forever changed my life, I wish everyone could know this feeling...it truly is empowering and the self love that comes from it is indescribable. I love the way I feel, the way I look, and the person I am. I am proud of the way I look and am proud to show it off and if someone doesn't like it that doesn't bother me..to each their own...but I love who I am and it's incredible.
For me, there are many end products that came out of this…the incredible photos are one, and that feeling of empowerment and true self love that I feel are another; both so amazingly beautiful and things I will have and hold close to me forever.
Whenever I think about this whole experience, talk about, or see one of my photos a huge smile comes across my face, my heart fills with love, a rush goes through my body, and I am on cloud nine. It's such an incredible high! I feel I could go on forever talking about this, just ask my mom, anytime I talk to her about it I can't stop. I truly believe everyone should do this and not wait!! If I could do a shoot with Lindsay and Erin everyday I would; and I cannot wait to do this again!!!
When I first reached out to Lindsay she asked me for the three words that define my version of sexy...I told her Strong, Confident, and Happy...well what do you know, this is me! Thank you Lindsay for helping me find and bring to life what I have admired in others for so long. Thank you for helping me fall in love with myself!!!
I was introduced to Lindsay's work by a co-worker who kept telling me I needed to do a boudoir shoot with her. I fell in love with the pictures I seen on her page but immediately thought of all the reasons not to do it, don't photograph well, being vulnerable, being half naked in front of someone I don't know and as confident as I come across to the people that know me the insecurities were winning. After repeatedly looking at all the BEAUTIFUL women I finally believed that I could and would do a shoot with her for myself. My whole life I have been very small, people always say"do you ever eat?" This statement has helped with the image insecurities I had almost all my life. The last year I have been on a crusade to think better of myself and to find out who I am ( the real me) so I have been going out of my comfort zone and facing my fears in order to grow into the woman I am meant to be. Lindsay and Erin are a amazing team together, right from the moment Lindsay opened the door I felt the nerves disappear. They both made me feel comfortable and worthy. When I seen the pictures I was blown away, I had to look at them about a 100 times, I finally got to see what everyone I love and respect had been telling me for years, that I am BEAUTIFUL. When Lindsay says she does this work to empower women she doesn't just say it, she truly has a gift and I'm happy that I got to be a recipient of her gift!
So I went to pick up my art, my fabulous fabulous art (#youasart), and after a totally hilarious/socially awkward moment of doubt about how to handle a guy maybe holding the door for me—maybe he isn’t, maybe he needs me to hold the door for HIM (are his arms full, is he coming, is he going?), and if I accept his chivalrous door-opening (if that is what it is), then how do I buzz Lindsay?—I walk right in to the lobby and hear someone exclaim: "I love your pants!" Okay, two things of note: 1. They're red corduroy pants from KUT from the Kloth and they're fantastic, and 2. The random compliment came from Lindsay's friend and client, Jamie. I had walked smack-dab into her other art pickup without even realizing it, being so caught up in my weird door-holding social interaction (a social construct that I could do without)! I drooled over Jamie's art a little (okay okay… I drooled a lot! There's one shot of her... well, it's not really this exactly, but it totally can be described as "elegantly falling down the stairs with the super ballin' back piece"), and we had a good laugh about strangers paying you weird (I prefer to say: awesome) compliments on the fantastic red shade of pants you're wearing. Now, the pants are important, because I was wearing the red pants, my big-girl heels, and a turtleneck, and Lindsay said, "You look cute!! You must've known I would put you on camera!" to which I replied, "No, I'm just working today.” She said, "Yeah but you look cute!" and instead of thank you, I said, "I have to dress like I want the promotion." Flash forward through other hilarity (anyone who knows Lindsay knows that hilarity is definitely always part of the conversation)… I'm now drooling over my own art, because it's fabulous, and Lindsay starts talking about her most recent blog, and then she stops and quirks her head at me, "Wait, did you do a blog yet?? I don't think you did… you should write a blog." I laughed a little and thought, how do I write a blog about myself? I normally keep things so close to my chest… Instead, I said, "Yeahhh, I'm not a great writer and don't really know what I'd write ABOUT." To be fair, it's true. I'm okay when I'm speaking, but writing is legit: it's there, it's on paper, it can be read, re-read, judged. You can say something and understand tone and context, but writing can be interpreted, or MISinterpreted. (Editor’s note: actually Stacey is a good writer! But yes, she did ask me to edit this blog-post for her… but she helped me write my novel, so THERE, Stacey, YOU’RE A GOOD WRITER and now everyone knows!) So Lindsay replied, "Really? I know what you can write about: how you walked in here and said you had to dress as if you were already promoted! I mean, you can totally write about your experience, but that's a powerful message. Women need to own what they want AND own their sexuality, and those can be totally tied together. Other people can make that mistake, or make the (incorrect) assumption that they somehow own your sexuality because of it. But it’s important to remember that that shit is for you and that you alone OWN it." This really got my gears turning. I thought, hey, I could write a blog: I could write about learning to own my sexuality, and more importantly, how critical it is for us to stick the fuck together as women and BE on the same team, to support each other owning our stories and our sexuality! I grew up surrounded by tough men and women—and I mean tough, men and women who overcame some serious shit and refused to back down, men and women who embrace their shit (for anyone who's ever read Elizabeth Gilbert, she talks about owning your shit: OWN YOUR SHIT Dear Ones - Oh how I... - Elizabeth Gilbert | Facebook)—but also, some men and women who didn't own their shit. Those men and women who, consciously or unconsciously, refuse to embrace their own shit, consequently limit their emotional capacity for empathy and compassion, and subsequently spread the message that YOU shouldn't proudly own your shit either. And if you don't own your shit, your decisions, YOUR life? Someone else will own it for you (or they’ll definitely try to)… So, I'll own it: I'm #dirty30 this year, I have some AMAZING friends and family members, and a WONDERFULLY supportive life partner who I'm grateful for EVERY fucking day. I've had the glorious fortune of being in a career that I love (so much that I got my PhD). I’ve been able to travel all over this gorgeous planet, meeting new amazing people every single day. But I've also been in some shitty jobs and had some even shittier relationships, I'm “one in four” (wtf dude.. how is that statistic so fucking high!!?), and I’ve learned some super hard lessons in boundaries and owning my own shit: such as the wake-up call that I don’t need to dress for a promotion. Who made those rules?! Here's my pledge: I’ve worked so hard to stop labeling others—why not extend the same love towards myself? I'm going to stop labeling myself. I’m giving myself permission to be sexy today, or not be sexy, and I'm going to OWN that decision. I’m giving myself permission to speak up at a meeting, and to pause when I need to, in order to speak from a place of empowerment. I’m giving myself permission to smile when I want, or to not smile. I’m giving myself permission to have attitude, give attitude, be confident, ask for the promotion or raise straight-up. I’m giving myself permission to take good care of myself when I don’t have the emotional energy to give to others; I give myself permission to give from a place of self-empowered love, rather than giving from a place of self-depleted sacrifice and resentment. I’m giving myself permission to openly support and respect others’ choice to do (or not do) the same. And most importantly, I’m going to own every bit of it; I alone own my stories and I alone own those choices, because if I don’t own them, then someone else will own them for me. You know what makes it so much easier to tune out the negativity and own it all? Walking into a room and having a stranger tell you: "Love those pants!", or "You look nice!" The positive reinforcement and empowering of other women reminds me how great people are, and how courageous they can be, and how complimenting a total stranger can brighten their day so much they bring it up in a blog post. And how it totally surpasses the need to embrace the social constructs (like having to dress for a promotion, or being socially awkward because you can’t tell if some dude is holding the door for you, OR questioning whether to speak up in a meeting because my tone may be misinterpreted simply because I’m a woman). So I’m also going to own empowering other women. I’m going to compliment a stranger, love all of the gorgeous babes represented in Lindsay’s art, and encourage EVERY woman to have this experience, to feel completely empowered afterwards, and to pay the love forward! Ironically, the quote Lindsay put up with my teasers really brings this point home: "I always thought that people told you that you're beautiful-that this was a title that was bestowed upon you... I think that it's time to take a power into our own hands and to say 'you know what? I'm beautiful. I just am. And that's my light. I'm just a beautiful woman,'" ~Margaret Cho
I am a first time Boudoir client and I had an incredible experience with Lindsay and Erin! A blog post from a member at my gym inspired me to finally take the leap and book a shoot. Lindsay and Erin are awesome women and beyond talented in their respected professions! What they create and capture is/was jaw dropping! Their positive, upbeat personalities helped keep any doubt or insecurities at bay - they are like cheerleaders on the sideline always making you feel like a million bucks ☺️. I walked out of the shoot feeling like I could conquer the world! When I met with Lindsay to review my photos I told her how much fun I had and how I could do boudoir shoots as a part time job 😂 - that was how much I enjoyed the whole experience!! Thank you Lindsay and Erin for helping me see and feel like the confident, sexy, strong woman I know I can be!" Thank you for the whole experience - I LOVED it and seriously would do it (if I could) as a job 😄.
I wanted to do a Boudoir shoot to get in touch with the raw, sexy version of myself. The month leading up to my photo shoot was difficult. I ate my weight in carbs to ease the nausea I felt from being newly pregnant. I was bloated, hormonal. I felt as if my body wasn’t my own and was frustrated that I had no control over what was happening to me. Stripping down in front of strangers had started to sound about as much fun as walking through a minefield. I walked into Lindsay’s nervous and unsure if I was really supposed to be there. Lindsay and Erin’s excitement and energy encouraged me to break out of the bullshit shell I had formed. I felt sexy and empowered not only for facing my vulnerabilities but for owning them. Lindsay captured a sultriness and sensuality that I had misplaced as my body transitioned into its new role. I left feeling comfortable in my own skin again and ready to meet the challenges of the journey ahead. I was reminded to embrace my insecurities for making me real and to appreciate myself in the present. When I saw my prints for the first time, I took away so much more from the experience I didn’t expect. I mean, yes, they are sexy as hell. But I fell in love with my body as a work of art and for its ability to do what it was beautifully designed for, creating life.
I was a weight watchers kid…. Raised by a mom that was always into fitness an “aerobics” instructor. Through middle school always being asked if I wanted to go to weight watchers with her. Always weighing my food, counting out each pretzel, going to meetings etc. I was never heavy at all. Just a little plump. It led me to an eating disorder when I was in college. I was bulimic for a number of years. Went from a size 12 to a 6 in a short amount of time. I realized I had a problem when my mom and I were in a store and when I got into those size 6’s she burst into tears. I hid my problem for a while. Until one day, I, in the middle of an episode I felt like I was having a heart attack. My chest hurt so bad I couldn’t breath and it brought me to tears. I knew it was time to stop what I was doing or else I could die. So instead I resorted to eating only steamed vegetables and anything “fat free” I could get my hands on. I Knew that wasn’t a healthy choice either but it kept me thin. I knew it was time to get some help. I’ve always had some sort of body dismorphia. I was never happy with the way that I looked or felt. My breasts were always large. I had a breast reduction and a lift when I was about 25. And from there it led me toward a life of fitness. I could finally run!!!! And I didn’t have to wear 3 sports bras to exercise. I started training with a trainer and started getting into really good shape. Started to learn how to eat properly and taking care of my body. I fell off the wagon because I was “enjoying” my twenties a little too much as most twenty year olds do. I eventually got into yoga and from there trained for my yoga certification. I then started training at Metabolic Meltdown by the influence of a few friends and coworkers. I instantly became addicted. Went to my first fitness show and was instantly inspired to do a show myself! Currently, I am training for my first figure show on November 12 with the help of my trainer Alexa Elia and Metabolic Meltdown workouts. As far as the salon goes, I opened it in 2006, I was 28 years old and knew I wanted to have my own salon before I turned 30. It was rough. I spent many nights sleeping in my salon and built it from the ground up with no hand outs. So we are celebrating our 10th year this year! As a business owner, I have been learning lesson after learning lesson and it is not an easy ride at all… people come and go, think they can do it better than you or on their own. It’s not for everyone. But our program is a program designed to build future leaders of Stiletto Salon. I am so ready to “share the wealth” with my company to those that want it. It’s not a program for the faint of heart but one that is looking to grow through hard work and pressure and a proven success to those that follow our program. We have built a brand!! A name. A reputation. A thought. A profession. A go to place. An experience. I have reached a point in my career that my stylists, coworkers, employees are my heartbeat. They wake me up every day! I am their leader and I want them to rely on me to help build a future and quality of life for them. I found Lindsay’s work on Instagram and became instantly obsessed. I’ve seen other Boudoir photographers but they all just looked trashy and unprofessional. Being in a place where I love my body now…. I am so happy with how far I’ve come through all this hard work. It is amazing through each stage and transformation to see my body change. It’s really cool. My shoot has impacted me. It has inspired me to capture a very special part of my life and it has allowed me to to feel comfortable with myself and not be afraid to hide the work I’ve done to get here. I want everyone to know that as women we need to empower each other instead of hate on each other
My life has been a series of incredible events. Some beautiful…. Some tragic….mostly magical as of lately. As I look at the images Lindsay captured of me I am again reminded that regardless of what am a dealing with at the moment, being photographed by my soul sisters makes my heart swell with love. I am a mom, a business owner, a nurse and a hopeless romantic. Currently I am battling cancer for the 4th time and its is exhausting. That being said my life light burns brightly and I am truly blessed to be surrounded by my tribe of artsy ladies!!!!! Lindsay made me feel so fierce and calm and shooting with her was incredible. Never give up….I know I won’t #fuckcancer
I got naked. I got naked because I wanted to, not because I wanted attention from a man, not because I want to be sexualized, not because I want to promote this body positive image the media is telling us is trendy, not because I want you all to think I love my body. I got naked because I am an artist and I believe the human body is art, it is beautiful…an art that is lost because we are all too busy shaming the body and over sexualizing it. I got naked because I am an artist and I believe the human body is art I got naked because I was afraid to start modeling again after months of depression, self mutilation and a suicide attempt. I didn’t want to explain the scars…I was afraid of them….but I’m no longer embarassed or ashamed. I love my body. Not because I love my curves and am caught up in this “curvy plus size body positive” movement, but because it survived when my mind didn’t want it to. We all have a battle, a journey, a path…we all have a body.
When I decided to book my boudoir session, I only had my fiancé in mind. I wanted to give him a wedding gift that would really WOW him and I knew that this would do the trick. What I didn’t know was how this experience was going to impact me personally. I have never felt more confident or exquisite then I did during the shoot. When I met with Lindsay after my session to view the pictures, I was stunned. Who was that SEXY, gorgeous woman in those photos? Looking at myself through Lindsay’s lens is something truly special. It changed the way I felt about myself on an intimate level. She captured my sensuality, confidence, and beauty that I don’t always see when I look in the mirror. I started out doing this as a gift for my fiancé, but it the end, it turned out to be one of the greatest gifts I have ever given myself.
There's always that feeling you get inside, kinda like butterflies in your belly when your husband whom has seen you naked a ton of times, smiles as he sees your pics! In the beginning I decided to do these pics as my bday gift for him, but honestly what I got out of it was completely for me. Lindsay Rae D'Ottavio made me realize my inner beauty and how hot I was with these stretch marks and all! The confidence you gain from doing something like this is incredible ❤️ Thank you so much Lindsay 😘 #onehotasbitch #herworkismagic
I wasn't an adventurous person. I wasn't a confident person. I wasn't my own person. I was exactly who everyone else wanted me to be for a majority of my life. I hit a few very low points before my first session- which, in hindsight, was probably the main reason for me to reach out to Lindsay; I needed that feeling of doing something out of my comfort zone to wake me up and peel away the layers that had built up to disguise myself. I almost backed out the night before the session and I am so glad I didn't. Lindsay made the shoot so comfortable for me, it was such a fun experience. Seeing myself through Lindsay's lens made me tear up and realize that I could be my own person, I could be confident, I could be sexy if I wanted or I could just be a homebody- other people's opinion of me didn't matter if I didn't want them to. My second session with Lindsay was reinforcement. My "badass" look completely contrasted my typical "girl next door" appearance that my peers know me by. It showed the confidence I am learning to have and I am so thankful to be comfortable with who I am in this moment.
I’ll be turning 40 this year and it scares me! I find myself staring in the mirror examining every wrinkle, curve, bump & stretch mark on my body. I do consider myself a confident woman but lately my confidence has been diminishing. Two years ago I underwent radiation for a brain tumor that left me nearly blind from one eye and lost all sensation from my left side of my face. Thankfully radiation worked. I’m back to normal but the radiation did affect my hormones. Making me gain weight combined with (not so pretty) skin issues. Don’t get me wrong I am so grateful that my sight and sensations are back to normal but the radiation side effects gets me down. It started affecting my relationship with my hubby & my daughter. My daughter has caught me saying “I’m so fat”, “I’m so ugly”, “My face is gross”, “My thighs are so nasty”. I realized that this NOT how I want to raise my daughter. I want my daughter to grow up confident no matter what shape she is. What make us beautiful is our character, intelligence and our perseverance.
I wanted someone to capture me they way I use to see myself and after obsessing over every image she posted I knew Lindsay was the one. I was hesitating in booking my shoot because of my size but I went through it any way. Lindsay is pure magic! From the moment I walked in the door she made me feel welcomed and in a safe place. Between make-up, hair and Lindsay I transformed to that woman I was once before and it felt sooooo good! I was reminded that I am a strong, confident vixen! I can conquer anything that comes my way!
I’m going to hang one of my images in my bedroom so it can remind my hubby how hot his wife is and when my daughter sees it she can appreciate her mothers strength, courage and beauty at any age or size. For me the image will serve as a reminder that I am confident and to seize each day like it’s my last!
Thank you Lindsay for awaking my inner goddess!
Once you have a child you and your world change in so many ways. You’re a mom to a beautiful little baby, and to that baby you are their world. You become selfless and give up your every need to satisfy and soothe your baby.. you are up countless nights, you work harder than ever to provide and give your baby everything they need.. you get frustrated, you learn to balance motherhood, relationships, friends, and work, and you never fully figure it out. you never pee alone again, every day you are guessing on what to do, or if your decisions are right, all while continuing to hold that little bundle of joy in your arms. I was 22 when I became a mom, I was in a less than ideal relationship and was completely lost. That first year of motherhood was the most difficult year of my life.. A year after I had my child and my body went back to somewhat how it was before.. I looked in the mirror naked and loved my body for giving me this beautiful baby, and at the same time become upset for it looking as it did.. in my eyes my body was ruined. Nothing was back where it was.. my tummy would never be the same again.. I struggled with this for a long time and I would be lying if I said I still didn’t. I finally decided that I need images of myself to have around my home that made me feel amazing.. images that I would see and feel proud of.. images my daughter would see that would make her feel as though her mom loves her body, and she should love hers too. As women we are surrounded with body shaming in all forms. I want my daughter to love and embrace her body, and I Knew in order to teach her this I must first love and embrace my own. It took me a long time to find a boudoir photographer that was exactly what I was looking for. I wanted someone who empowers women and supports women in loving themselves as they are. A photographer that photographs real women with real bodies who have curves and want to show them off. A photographer that would make me feel like I was stunning, and rocked the shoot! I wanted to feel empowered.. and confident, and sexy again. When I found Lindsay’s work I immediately fell in love. Her talents are exceptional and she is the best of the best in boudoir photography. Being a photographer my self I was very selective, I knew she was going to be the artist to photograph me! I went into the shoot with high expectations that Lindsay far exceeded! Erin did my makeup flawlessly, and Lindsay posed my body perfectly. I felt so comfortable from the second I walked in the door! During my shoot I felt like the most beautiful woman in the world. My flaws didn’t cross my mind, and I felt like I rocked the shoot.. Lindsay makes you feel empowered, loves with her whole heart, encourages and supports women to be who they are and feel sexy the whole way! I can now go into my room and see the pieces of art work that were created.. by my body.. I feel sexy, confident, and like a whole new person. My daughter is now being taught to love yourself as you are and be confident in yourself always. I will forever be grateful for Lindsay and Erin for making me feel and look as gorgeous as I do in these images. These are images that I will have for a lifetime and the experience I gained and how I now feel about myself is something that I will hold close to my heart for many years to come!
If you are ever in the same place as Lindsay, SHOOT WITH HER. She will make you feel like a goddess!! Her energy, pose coaching, and reassurance during shooting result in amazing photos you didn't even know you had in you. Thank you to my friend, the amazingly talented Lindsay for this experience! If only every woman in my life could have a session with her, they'd realize just how fierce, strong, and sexy they all are.
My experiences with Lindsay have been very unique and special for me as I believe it is and will be for all of her clients. In 2014 I got engaged and knew I wanted to do something special for my soon to be husband. I found Lindsay and booked my session immediately! I was so excited as I looked at all of her beautiful work and started to "compare" myself to her other clients thinking "I cant wait to look at beautiful as them." Let's be real we always compare ourselves! But why? And how do we compare because we are individuals. Lindsay did a fantastic job and my prints are so beautiful! Make up was so perfect thanks to Erin! How often do you get to see yourself looking and feeling like a super star? One small problem for me ... I was still so extremely uncomfortable with myself, as much help as I had with clothing it was still hard when you don't feel sexy. Well literally after that shoot I started working out four days a week and changing the way I ate daily. I have never been skinny and was never the pretty girl in the room. After a few months I started to build confidence within myself for so many reasons. I reached out to Lindsay and I shared how important it was for me to have another session, so her and I booked for a few months out and we began the hunt for the best possible outfits for me to wear. Lindsay is so fantastic and puts so much time in for her clients. She sent me at least twenty links to websites to chose from! She goes above and beyond to ensure your happy. The day of my shoot I was mentally and physically prepared. (yes physically! When she says stretch she means it!! Listen to her, because it makes a huge difference) Erin did a fantastic job with my hair and makeup. She is professional, so sweet and a true beauty herself! During the shoot Lindsay made me laugh and feel so comfortable. I had a goal going into this and it was to be completely free and open and let the moment take me where it needed to. I can say after I left that day I felt sexy and confident! I felt like I got over some kind of hump, don't get me wrong I still have insecurities as most people do. But for me, feeling confident is more important than caring what my hair or makeup looked like that day. When I scheduled my reveal with Lindsay I was anxious to see how everything had turned out. I was blown away!! As cliche as I sound I kept thinking "I cant believe that is me!" I did not have to compare myself to any one else, at that exact moment I realized how sexy and beautiful I am and did not need or want to look like anyone else...because I loved how I looked! I definitely am so happy I did this a second time because my inner soul needed it. I can not wait to give these gifts to my soon to be husband on our wedding day and show him how sexy his wife is!!!
Since recently becoming a mother of two I have begun to hate my body. This was really starting to take a toll on some of my most important relationships. So one night I saw Lindsay’s video on the Self Love Experience and I thought that’s exactly what I need. In the beginning I was extremely nervous, this was something so far outside of my comfort zone. Lindsay was supportive through the whole process from picking out what to wear to poses. The experience was amazing, I left the studio with such a high and a new found love for myself. The best part I was able to view my images a few hours after shooting. I was shocked on how beautiful I looked, I had never seen myself this way and was so completely happy. This experience has helped me find the love for myself that I have been missing, it has opened my eyes to see that I am beautiful in my own way . I would do this again and again for myself!
When I first made my appointment with Lindsay I was so excited to try something new. I'm a shy person who doesn't like to talk about anything personal so that made me nervous that my pictures might not turn out like I want them to. Fast forward to the day of my appointment. It was very nerve racking to me, I'm out of my comfort zone and trying something new for the first time. Meeting Lindsay for the first time was fantastic, she makes you feel at home. She isn't just a photographer she's a friend. You would think that meeting someone for the first time would be awkward because you're going to be posing in front of them in lingerie. Lindsay made the experience one that I will never forget. I brought my best friend with me and we had a 2 hour ride home and how professional Lindsay was and the amazing experience I had with her is all we talked about the entire way home. This photo shoot was very personal, it exposes me in ways that I'm not used to showing people. Lindsay taught me how to love my body because the way I look at them in pictures is not how I see it in the mirror. I was one of the lucky few that got to see my pictures before they were "touched up" and I fell in love with them before she did anything to them! Lindsay pushes you to your limits to get that perfect shot. She's the only photographer I recommend to everyone and I just love showing people my photos.
Lindsay is a beautiful, passionate soul. From the moment I walked into her apartment for hair and make up, she made me feel valued and comfortable, as if I had known her for years. While I silently I was apprehensive about my wardrobe, Lindsay praised my choices and helped put my mind at ease. We chatted so easily over cocktails during hair and make up, it was such a nice precursor to the shoot that would follow. Cassandra was a rock star with my make up and hair. She is truly an artist at what she does. She was also so kind to work with me on her birthday! I was and still am so appreciative! When it came to shooting, Lindsay is professional and zealous. She taught me everything, from being mindful of my light source to contorting my body to accentuate my assets and minimize areas of my body that made me self conscious. Again, she made it feel as though she had all the time in the world to provide me with a truly unique, empowering experience. Lindsay is a master of her trade and knows all of the tricks and has a valuable plethora of knowledge the help any woman be successful accomplishing the individual goals she has for herself in doing a boudoir shoot. As of today, I have only seen teasers, but I can tell you that Lindsay is and artist. The images I have seen are breathtaking and are presented tastefully and passionately. I am blown away by her workmanship and talent! The images are beyond my wildest expectations. In seeing the pictures, I finally feel beautiful and confident, for the first time in a very long time. I would and do recommend Lindsay and her Self Love Experience to any woman looking for a boudoir session. Whether you plan to gift the photos or keep them for yourself, Lindsay will give you an experienced of a life time and have you feeling confident, sexy, and empowered. Also, when you book a session and Lindsay advises you to stretch, heed her warning. She will have you using and elongated muscles you never know you had and you will be sore the following day!
I absolutely LOVED working with Lindsay. Not only did she make me feel comfortable and sexy in my own skin, when I saw the photos from the shoot I was completely blown away! She helped me through the whole process, from selecting a theme for my shoot, recommending hair and makeup, helping me select pieces that would work best, and showing me poses that are flattering for women of ANY size or shape. It was such a blast and I cannot wait to work with her again.
This was a wonderful experience, and nerve racking. Not just bigger women have problems with body image and even though I am skinny I too am self conscious. I think as women we need to shop the comments about weight. The "omg eat something", "you must be anorexic" comments. I hear them often almost once a day. I am what I am and I cannot change that. Many say I'm blessed or "oh so lucky" but who wants to hear those comments day in and out. Lets embrace each others individuality and diverse beauty. I wish I had the thicker body. I wish I had curves and breasts but I don't. I was so nervous to do these photos, but I see them now and I've never felt so beautiful. I love every inch of myself. Lindsay did a fabulous job not just as a photographer but as a coach. She made aspects of my body pop out. Thank you so much Lindsay... and remember in a diverse world we're all beautiful! And the diversity of each and everyone of us makes the world beautiful.
Aside from that awkward stage we all go through in our early teens, I have been fortunate enough to always be pretty happy with my reflection in the mirror. Overall satisfied with the “average” beauty I thought I possessed. After my session in front Lindsay’s camera and the images she captured, I now realize we ladies are anything but average. Through Lindsay’s vision and coaching, I was able to see a tangible image of the woman inside my head. The woman I felt like, but was never totally sure manifested physically. Lindsay and her camera are the reason I walk with my head a little higher these days. The reason I am now even more confident that I am fully projecting as me. Our session was an absolutely incredible experience, one where I felt a mixture of excitement and comfort. Her genuine passion for what she does and why she does it is infectious. I am over the moon happy with my photos and will treasure them for years to come! If not for someone else, book a boudoir session with her for YOU! I promise it will be the best thing you have ever done for yourself. Thank you, Lindsay!!!
When I first arrived to take pictures with Lindsay, she was editing an earlier shoot. The makeup artist was prepared to start, and Lindsay bounced between telling me how amazing the makeup looked and checking out the pictures she had taken the previous day. It was like watching and talking to a ball of energy! Photography seems easy. What Lindsay did with our session was beyond photography. It was a way to bring out a side of a person, me, that other people have seen, but that is hidden behind my own image of myself when I am looking in the mirror. Lindsay's boudoir session included shots that were artistic and soft - which were the shots she loved the most and included shots that were feminine and strong - which were the ones I was drawn to. With every photo she captured a moment that allowed me to see what my husband and my close friends, have tried to convince me is there. A strong, beautiful, graceful, and sensual person. Lindsay is professional, but not stuffy, and has enlisted great circle of people to help make her sessions an experience. I am happy to endorse her work and her business.
As a victim of Sexual Assault and Abuse I have always felt very self conscious of myself. I have horrible communication skills from past trauma experiences. I am 33 years old and have been through numerous traumatic events. Being a victim and a SURVIVOR of sexual assault makes you feel like you have your beauty taken away, You feel like you don't have control of things, you feel like you need permission to do anything that has to do with making yourself look and feel beautiful confident. I scrolled through my Facebook newsfeed one day and saw a gorgeous boudoir picture and thought I could never do that. I am not pretty enough, not confident enough, I do not have the will power to do that, I do not have the self-esteem, etc. I thought about it more, I researched Lindsay and her work, and saw she worked with RAINN.org. I thought, NO MORE, Sexual Assault wont define me. It wont prohibit me, it wont stop me. It WILL EMPOWER me. I booked my appointment for a self love photo shoot and it was the best experience I ever had. I felt confident, beautiful, empowered, my self-esteem went up. It was almost as if this was a unique therapy session. At the end I had a smile from ear to ear. Lindsay makes you feel so comfortable in front of the camera. I thought for sure I was asking a million questions on how to put my foot, my arm, where to look, how to smile, etc. she never made me feel uncomfortable at all. This experience will leave you with a whole different outlook on life, and most importantly a whole different outlook on yourself. You will see yourself in ways that other people do, and have probably told you before, but you never really believed because of the abuse you faced. A Self-Love photo shoot will not only make you feel and look beautiful on the outside but on the inside as well. Nothing is as great as self-love. xo
Lindsay and I had been planning my boudoir session for months. As the day approached, I found myself getting so very excited and nervous. As Erin beautified my face, I felt my nerves spike even more. But the second I was in front of the camera, my nerves were calmed. Lindsay has a true gift for not only highlighting your best features and assets but she has the amazing ability to make you feel like the best, the only, THE woman. I can't express in words the pride I feel when I look at these photos. And the gratitude I have for Lindsay bringing that to life. She is truly a gift to the photo industry and I feel so blessed to have had this experience with her....and with myself.
Have you ever been curious about doing your own personal boudoir session? Maybe as a gift or for yourself. I highly recommend booking with Lindsay!! She was amazing from the moment I first contacted her to begin the process of booking. She helped guide me with what I should shop for that would be best for my body. I expressed my personal insecurities( we all have them!) and as soon as we met for the photo shoot they went right out the window! She is so professional and fun to work with! Erin Marie is excellent as well! As a team they made me feel like a super star! Go ahead and fulfill your curiosity and see how beautiful you can be!
Lindsay, is not only professional, but she is educated. Her photography is so much more than pointing the camera and pushing a button - she is an artist, she has a vision and she captures it. Her photography radiates, not only because she is wonderful, but because her clients are made to feel comfortable (myself). She guided me, she was funny and she made me feel at ease - and not to forget, beautiful. If you are looking for someone, definitely do not hesitate to book with Lindsay! She works with you, not just for you! :)
I've know Lindsay for years, so I was lucky enough to get to see a lot of her work before my shoot. Looking through her portfolio really made me feel better, because I saw women of all shapes and sizes, (not just your standard perfect model) and they all looked sexy and comfortable, which gave me confidence that Lindsay would do the same for me. She helped me pick the outfits, even running to grab a pair of her own shoes and earrings to perfect the styling of the looks. I'm not generally someone who considers myself "sexy" so I was nervous about doing a boudoir shoot, but she made it easy and I got so much more comfortable as we went along. The pictures ended up amazing, and I really couldn't have asked for anything more! I recommend anyone go to Lindsay, she will make you look and feel beautiful, and you'll have a little something sexy to give your man for any occasion!
Lindsay has a stellar way of making you feel comfortable in front of the camera. Her direction is spot on and leads you through the whole time with an end result of photos you'll cherish forever. She documented both my family and boudoir photos each complimenting each other in their own ways while capturing the two very different sides of myself. Thrilled for our next moments to capture behind the lens.
Lindsay Rae Photography did an amazing job on my boudoir photos for Valentines Day! Not only did she do a great job posing me but she made me feel like I was the most beautiful woman in the world. She is really amazing at what she does. I would recommend her to everyone and anyone who wants to look and feel beautiful!
I've long believed that a talented photographer is worth their weight in gold & Lindsay is a sublime example to prove it. I had the sincere pleasure of working with her for a bio & boudoir shoot this fall & the entire experience - from pre-shoot preparations to delivery of the final product - was fabulous. She offered considerable guidance on what to wear beforehand & suggested exquisite shoot locations for me to choose from. Day of, she made the entire shoot comfortable and fun, all the while capturing exquisite angles, lighting, & setups with a purposefully artistic talent. Turn around time to the final product was lightning speed & I was nothing short of delighted with the moments she captured. Thanks to her professionalism, creativity, & kind heart, it was an empowering adventure with fantastic results that I will truly cherish forever. I've already recommended Lindsay Rae Photography to friends & look forward to returning in front of her lens again in the future!