I did my first shoot with Lindsay in January of 2015. Being a pharmacist and being a professional it’s very difficult to find that line of keeping things classy, sexy, conservative and professional all at the same time. My first shoot was one of the hardest things I have had to put myself through. I find myself to be a very confident and humble woman not to mention very active in sports but this, was nothing like I’ve ever experienced before.
I remember being so self conscious of how I looked, to the point of not being able to come out the bathroom. I kept thinking to myself why did I do this? How can I do this? What are other people going to think of me? It wasn’t until I sat down for my reveal session that totally blew me away. I couldn’t believe that was me. I couldn’t believe that I had the opportunity to do something so personal and intimate like this. This shoot went deeper than what’s just on outside. Your vulnerability and emotions are completely exposed.
There is a different kind of self love a boudoir shoot can give you than nothing else can. Working as a pharmacist it’s hard to feel sexy because our job is solely focused on the care of our patients. After my first shoot, I was determined to do another one and push myself even more. This time I wanted our gorgeous glam goddess Erin Goyer Bink to shoot with me. We showed strength, femininity, courage, women power, and brought the sexiness to that shoot. That was such an incredible experience and yet so different than my first session.
I think now I feel comfortable and confident enough to know that I can have that balance between working as a pharmacist and also play dress up and be sexy when I’m not at work. This last shoot took it to the most vulnerable state anyone could be in. I couldn’t have felt more comfortable and more confident in myself. There are so many people that have allowed me to get to this point that I couldn’t be more grateful for. My trainer Alexa Jaye who pushes me every day off I have to consistently make sure I stay on track with my fitness goals, Erin Goyer Bink who is not only one of the most beautiful people I know inside and out, but who I have learned so much from, and the amazing and most talented Lindsay Rae. Lindsay and pushed me and transformed me into being the best version of myself.
Standing there naked looking out the bedroom window of my home, the only thing going through my mind was how incredibly grateful I am to have gotten to this point in my life and how each and every person I have encountered along the way has played a huge part in getting me there. I look out the window with confidence and excitement to the endless possibilities that lie ahead.