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Guilded – A Fine Art Nude Editorial

I will admit, Fine Art Nude sessions are always my favorite.  There are few things more beautiful in the world than the human form, and being able to capture it as art is what I live for. I am incredibly proud of this set, not only for the images, not only for the journey I watched our #LRPBoudieBeauty take from the start to the end of her session, but because this set has been published in Voltron Magazine.

I will let this babe take it from here because her words are powerful and her point is radiating truth. 

“It was such a surreal and exciting moment when I realized I’d get to have the opportunity to shoot with Lindsay and Erin! I had been following their incredible art for a while and was always so amazed by the obvious way in which Lindsay and Erin celebrate the body and soul and all of our individual differences at a time when it’s most necessary; When young girls are being sent home from school, their educations disrupted because the vessels in which they’ll one day feed their children from prove too distracting, if god forbid a strap shows or a bra-less outline peaks through the fabric. When the president of our country himself, ridicules women for their outward appearance and even their natural bodily processes, the same ones his mother, wife, and daughter surely all endure.

When facebook in all of its data mining determines that I am a young woman aged between twenty and thirty and starts gearing every single one of its ads towards dropping pounds, slimming the waist, enhancing the breasts, making hair and eyelashes and fingernails grow, making the smile whiter, the cheekbones look higher, propagating only one definition of beauty. Lindsay and Erin are two superheroes in capes fighting that definition. And they do a damn good job. It’s such an honor getting to be a part of their self-love movement.
When my friends asked me, “Aren’t you worried about the pictures being posted for the whole world to see?”, I shrugged and said “It’s a body”. They didn’t always seem content with that answer. But it’s 2017 and naked bodies are everywhere, but maybe only that one kind of naked body.

But it’s just a body. It’s a little bit shorter than most. It’s been broken and patched up in a few places. There are old self harm scars, ruins in the skin leftover from a past life. But it’s just a body. And I can sit here and criticise myself for what makes my body different from the girls in the magazines (although now thanks to my two superheros, my tiny, imperfect, scarred little body IS in a magazine, painted golden and looking fierce) or I can celebrate that it’s healthy and powerful and that it’s the vessel that brought me here, to a positive and joyful place.

These photos only add to this journey in self-love and confidence. They made me feel absolutely stunning, especially when I saw the results of the shoot, and I can’t get over just how talented they are, not only with their creativity but what they bring out of people.

Thank you Lindsay and Erin for the beautiful work you are doing, both on your canvases and in the world. ❤
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Check out the cover of the magazine this set was featured in!

I also couldn’t resist turning this session into a sample album with our new Merlot Python with Diamond Ice Cover Opulent Album!

I Found My Light

This woman has no idea just how deeply she “gets” me.  From the amazeballs thank you gift she brought to her reveal (ummm hello gorgeous sound waves image of my fave song of my fave musical ever (pic on bottom) Seasons of Love) to the way she could understand the passion I have for light…both in a physical and dare I say spiritual way. she got me.

And I think she got Erin too…I don’t think we have ever laughed that hard or made that many inappropriate jokes with someone during hair and makeup before. #Iloveagooddirtyjoke

Sometimes you only need to meet someone for one minute to completely click with them.  She hadn’t even put her bags down after walking into The Loft  before I told this #LRPBoudieBeauty she was going to be a muse of mine and that I needed to photograph her beyond her Self Love Experience Session.  It isn’t just because she is absolutely, breathtakingly gorgeous, it is because there is a light that emanates from her, a peace that radiates from her as soon as she enters the room.  She inspires me.  She ignites the artistic side of my brain with ideas of art and creation.  I did ask her to come back after this session! I had a small time art magazine reach out to me and ask me to photograph an exclusive project for them and I didn’t even blink before reaching out to this babe to fulfill the spot in that project as my muse.  You will definitely be seeing more from our 2nd shoot together in a few months when the  edition of the magazine featuring our work is released.

In the meantime, let her inspire you, the way she has so deeply inspired me.

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“I decided 27 would be the year I would devote to finding my true self.  When I looked around, I saw that my life appeared so full and yet I still felt a void deep within me screaming to be filled. I began journaling about all aspects of my life and almost out of pure happenstance; I came across Lindsay’s page.  I spent nearly an hour flipping through photos, blogs and comments noticing a familiar theme. These were powerfully fierce women who also were trying to find themselves.

I walked into The Loft sheltering my braless chest with a bag filled to the brim with outfit choices for the shoot. Insecurities whirled through my head as I counted each step on the way up. What did I get myself into? The door swung open and this refreshingly upbeat yet down to Earth woman appeared and my mind was soon consumed with trust.

Being in front of Lindsay’s lens is a liberating experience.  She truly finds beauty in every moment.  You could be moving into the next pose and she’ll say “wait! Hold it right there!” and the next thing you hear is the click of the camera. She is always on. I couldn’t help but think how amazing it would be to see the world the way Lindsay does and added that as a mantra to log later.

Lindsay and Erin have this way of making you find your light; both literally and figuratively.  With each passing brush stroke, Erin makes you feel luxurious while Lindsay directs you in a stunning way. Throughout the entire shoot I realized this was what life was supposed to be like – what my screaming void needed.  What if most moments made me feel like this and what was holding me back from that? I felt sexy, confident and downright badass.

It was decided – once I left there I would be saying goodbye to my old self. I wouldn’t let negative thoughts consume me and I was going to help other women do the same. WE, as women, tend to rip ourselves and each other apart and life is way too short not to have every other woman’s back.

Walking out of The Loft was the most empowering moment I’ve ever experienced. Opting to stay braless, I celebrated at a favorite Saratoga bar with a bellini in hand. I owned that shit. I found my light.”

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Hair and Makeup by our resident Glam Goddess Erin Marie Aristry

…..and my amazeballs soundwave gift she gave me that now is hanging in my office! (#4AJ)

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Becoming Hers – A Couples Boudoir

I am beyond excited to announce a new offering between LRP and Erin Marie Artistry!

For the longest time we said no to couples boudoir, I was afraid that it would cross the line into looking like porn…but then I discovered the lingerie brand Anya Lust and inspiration came surging through me like crazy.

For us couples boudoir is about mixing intimacy with fashion.  It is not just about the bedroom, but about the story that can be told.  It is about passion, lust, seduction, and exchanges of power. It is about tantalizing temptations and the compassionate touches.

These “Becoming Hers” sessions are available to our return clients on special request

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A very special thank you to the handsome Mario and Daniel of M&D Farms in Westerlo, NY!

If you are a bride looking for a venue this should be one at the tippy top of your list…it is amazing!

Also be sure to keep your eyes out for my home girl Nicole Nero who captured this same amazing duo in a styled wedding shoot! Nicole is at the top of my list for referrals when our Bridal Boudoir clients ask for photographer recommendations for their wedding!

And to the two drop dead gorgeous models Maiya Genovisi and Dave Anderson…who met for the first time in lingerie, who followed my crazy direction, and from that brought forth a true and exquisite connection, I thank you.  I looked high and low for the two perfect people to complete my vision, and after sourcing through tons of submissions, there was no one that stood out to me the way that you two did.  Your professionalism and willingness to push limits do not go un-noticed.

And of course, nothing is ever possible without my right hand gal, my partner in glam crime, my confidant and one of my very best friends up here….Erin Goyer Bink of Erin Marie Artistry

So ladies, who is bringing their partners (male or female) to create some amazing art with us?

You Are Not Alone

It is no small shock if we spend even a little time together, that you will right away know that I have spent much of my life battling severe anxiety and depression. This is much of what has driven me into the work that I do, making women learn to love themselves. I would be lying to you if I looked you in your eye and said that I do not still battle this daily. Depression and Anxiety…labels…you hear them, you think there is something wrong with you….because for some reason mental health is so deeply stigmatized and demoralized. You are made to feel that you are flawed because you can’t walk around and be happy all the time like everyone else you see….but then you reach 30, and you realize, behind every smiling face is a story. That just because someone is smiling and laughing that you might have absolutely no idea what is going on inside of them. That just because someone is the loudest person in a room that they are not quivering with fear on the inside every time they open their mouth and that the loudness is just some awkward coping mechanism to deal with the constant “do they think I am stupid”, “do they like me”, “I should just stop talking now” feelings that are racing through their mind.

I have made it a point in my life to talk about subjects that make people uncomfortable.

On the other side of discomfort is understanding and on the other side of understanding is empathy.

As a mother, one of my biggest goals in life is to raise an empathetic child. A child who can sit quietly in a room with someone and feel them without them having to say a word. This is something that can only be cultivated by speaking about this type of issue. This is something that can only happen if you are unafraid to talk about the things that make you uncomfortable. This is something that can only happen when you learn to look your own feelings dead in the face and tell them “Hey, its ok you are here, we are gonna hang out and feel for a few days but I refuse to unpack and live in this muck.” One of my favorite sayings is that “Sometimes the only way to get over something is to go through it.” However getting over it is not something that someone with depression or anxiety can easily do. So we talk about it. We address it. We let it live and breathe and pay homage to the fact that having feelings is ok. We do not get over it. We compartmentalize it, learn to pack that feeling in a box and store it in the top of our brain closet and choose to not look at it….but it is always there.

….and that is ok.

As women we need to learn to look after one and other. To empathize and know that the depth of someones issues may not be the same, but that if someone is afraid of water, standing in the shallow end may feel just as scary to them as jumping into the middle of an ocean is for us…and that it is not our place to judge their fears or anxieties…it is our job to help them through it. This doesn’t mean you walk around trying to “fix” peoples problems, or to minimalism their pain or fears. This means that you can look at someone and tell them it is ok to feel, I am going to be here for you while you do and then I am going to help you find a nice brain box to tuck that feeling away in and we are going to go out and get some ice cream after.

This means you need to talk about it.

With all of this being said, I could not be more inspired or proud of this incredible #LRPBoudieBeauty who has chosen to share some of her story with us. She has chosen to reveal some of the deepest parts of her life and remind you, if you are feeling the same way, that you are NOT alone.

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I ran across Lindsay’s Facebook page by accident. I found her page at what I thought was the end to my lowest point. I loved what she believed in and I wanted to be a part of that. I emailed her and we reserved a date. Somewhere between that day and the day of the shoot I found my lowest point to date. I couldn’t exactly tell you what I felt, I don’t think I did feel honestly. I remember sitting on the toilet after a shower and just starring at the wall. Not thinking, not moving, just starring. And then I cried. I felt so incredibly sad, a sadness I have never in my entire life felt. And then that voice came over me, a voice I have heard before and I thought I would never hear it again. “ I want to die” is all I could hear. I DID want to die. The sadness I felt was too overwhelming to bare. Fast forward, I end up in the hospital where I stayed for two weeks. I came out of the hospital with a diagnosis but feeling refreshed. “Major depression/anxiety disorder” is what is on my medical records.

When I booked a date with Lindsay I did it because I wanted to apart of a beautiful thing she was helping to create within all woman. By the time the reveal day came I had a whole new reason for this experience. To celebrate life. I kicked some ass in those pictures. When I look at my photos I see looking back at me a strong beautiful woman. A woman who hasn’t and won’t give up. And that my friend’s is a truly amazing feeling. I gave you a tiny piece of a chapter in my book to show you that these pictures can mean so many different things to each woman.

If you are struggling with depression and/or anxiety know you are NOT alone. And if you are wanting to go through with this experience I urge you too. I promise you will come walking out of this with a whole new meaning about life.

You are beautiful. You are amazing. You are strong. You are enough. NEVER forget it.
XoXoXo Kasee

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Hair and Makeup by our Glam Goddess Erin Marie Artistry

No Regrets

I am excited to share another favorite throw back session with you! It is always a joy to open our emails to see amazing and vulnerable write ups from our clients!  It is also such a joy to look back at our older home studio sessions! A bit of nostalgia can go super far on a #ThrowbackThursday morning!

Be sure to scroll all of the way to the bottom to see the gorgeous art that this #LRPBoudieBeauty took home with her!

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“I’m not sure where to begin. I’ve taken way too long to write this. I actually gave my husband the book and print last night. Wow! It was an amazing response from him. I was nervous and excited to show him, but it was the best surprise for our anniversary!! He could never have guessed what he was about to open. Honestly, I’m not someone that dreamt of having boudoir photos done. It never even crossed my mind. Somehow I came across Lindsay’s Instagram page one night and I fell in love with her pictures. I started looking more into her website to see what the whole thing was about. Her message of empowering women and wanting women to embrace their beauty really caught my attention. I think it is easy to lose sight of ourselves as we grow older and our bodies change. I have two young children so any mom knows how tiring it can be and how we might not feel our best all the time. I had recently started working out again when I found Lindsay. I was finally feeling motivated and more comfortable with my body for the first time in a very long time. I decided to ask for more information on her sessions. At first I was hesitant and unsure if I would go through with it. Could I really do this? Could I keep the secret from my husband? YES! The secret wasn’t always easy. There were a few times I wanted to tell him what I was doing, but I’m so glad I didn’t. We now have this great memory of when he first saw the pictures. The day of my session I left not wanting it to end. Lindsay and Erin were so much fun to be around and made me feel 100% comfortable and beautiful. I left on a high that lasted the rest of the day and night. What I wanted out of this experience is exactly what I got and much more. I now have these amazing, sexy, tasteful pictures forever and pictures I can be proud of. I’m a big believer in we live once. Try to embrace what you have today because we don’t know how long we’ll have it for. That is exactly what I did and I have no regrets. Thank you Lindsay and Erin for one of the best days!”

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Hair and Makeup by our glam goddess Erin Marie Artistry

Mother of Two

It is always a treat when one of our babes who wasn’t sure if they wanted to share, comes back to us later on and not only gives us permission to share their art, but also writes such a beautiful, vulnerable piece to go along with it!

So excited to throw it back to this absolutely gorgeous mother of two!

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“When I was asked to write a blog I thought for a moment, why would anyone want to know what I have to say, what makes me so special? And that’s when it occurred to me, that I think the majority of people feel that way. Just like most of us, I’m a mom, a wife, a business woman, a daughter, a sister, a friend, a board member, a volunteer, a cook, a housekeeper, a chauffeur and the list goes on and on. But, on the day of my shoot, I was someone I never allow myself to be because all those other roles come first. I was mortified, I was 30 minutes early sitting in my car contemplating whether or not to get out. My stomach was doing back flips and I thought I might be sick. I should be at work, I shouldn’t have taken the day off. I shouldn’t have spent that money on myself, there are so many other things I could have done with it. I took a deep breath, got out of my car and walked up the street and rung the bell. The rest kind of feels like a dream, I was swept away to this place where for once, it was all about me. I wasn’t in the best shape I have ever been, if anything I’m pretty close to weighing more than I ever have, yet I still felt comfortable with myself. Lindsay and Erin made me feel so relaxed and welcome that morning. I have to say I’ve never felt so beautiful in all my life, no, not even on my wedding day did I feel like this. In that moment I was a celebrity, a rock star, I was a freakin’ super model! That day and that experience changed me. I have a little more pep in my step these days. I feel empowered to do more things for myself without harboring guilt because at the end of the day, when you feel good about yourself it shines through, making you more successful in the various roles you play every day.”

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Hair and Makeup by our Glam Goddess Erin Marie Artistry

Also check out this #LRPBoudieBeauty with her beautiful Opulent Collection below!!

Not Your Typical Maternity Boudoir

People think of maternity photos and they think about nothing but the bump…but let’s be honest here…for most women, like myself, the bump doesn’t show up for quite some time.

I spent 24 weeks of being pregnant before a real bump ever even began to show.  24 weeks of changes to my body, 24 weeks of new life growing inside of me…

Every single one of those weeks of pregnancy should be celebrated, admired, and honored.

This babe knew when she booked her shoot that she was pregnant and that her body would rapidly be changing and life would be growing and she wanted to honor herself and her body in these early stages of pregnancy… honor her “pre-baby” body if you will…

I will let her speak from her own heart here

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“I wanted to do a Boudoir shoot to get in touch with the raw, sexy version of myself.

The month leading up to my photo shoot was difficult.  I ate my weight in carbs to ease the nausea I felt from being newly pregnant.  I was bloated, hormonal.  I felt as if my body wasn’t my own and was frustrated that I had no control over what was happening to me.  Stripping down in front of strangers had started to sound about as much fun as walking through a minefield.  I walked into Lindsay’s nervous and unsure if I was really supposed to be there.

Lindsay and Erin’s excitement and energy encouraged me to break out of the bullshit shell I had formed.  I felt sexy and empowered not only for facing my vulnerabilities but for owning them.  Lindsay captured a sultriness and sensuality that I had misplaced as my body transitioned into its new role.

I left feeling comfortable in my own skin again and ready to meet the challenges of the journey ahead.  I was reminded to embrace my insecurities for making me real and to appreciate myself in the present.

When I saw my prints for the first time, I took away so much more from the experience I didn’t expect.  I mean, yes, they are sexy as hell.  But I fell in love with my body as a work of art and for its ability to do what it was beautifully designed for, creating life.”

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Hair and Makeup by our resident Glam Goddess Erin Marie Artistry

Mother of Dragons, The Unburnt, Breaker of Chains

There is no surprise that I am 100% obsessed with Game of Thrones.  We totally nerd out over it.  But more recently than ever GOT has been giving me major Girl Power vibes! I am loving seeing the power shift into the hands of the feminine divine!

I, like many other nerds out there, totally love the character of Deanery’s. Her story-line, of starting in a place of submission and rising to a place of pure power is one that inspires me. So there is no surprise that when Sara reached out to me, with her new long blonde hair, and desire to shoot outside that I instantly thought of her to portray my inspired version of Daenerys Targaryen, the First of Her Name, Queen of Meereen, Queen of the Andals and the Rhoynar and the First Men, Lord of the Seven Kingdoms, Protector of the Realm, Khaleesi of the Great Grass Sea, called Daenerys Stormborn, the Unburnt, Mother of Dragons.

I reached out to my darling friend Katie Burns and asked her if she knew how to do a “Khaleesi braid” and she knew exactly what I wanted and was on board to help me bring this vision to life.

Sara and I chose to do the shoot nude, because there is a symbolism in leaving the garments behind, every-time in the show that Kahleesi reclaims her power she is born again of fire and is shown nude in her vulnerability…but in that vulnerability is pure, unadulterated strength.

Here is what Sara had to say about her shoot:

“When I think of Daenerys Targaryen, I think about female empowerment and freedom of expression. This character is a woman who through the ordeals and trials and tribulations of life grew from a meek and self-conscious little girl into a fiercely respected leader. Her story parallels a lot of my own, so when Lindsay asked me to do a Khaleesi-inspired shoot, I jumped at the opportunity. You see, I am a woman who lives on the fringes of society. I run the world’s oldest (and many say finest!) BDSM training chateau.When it comes down to it, it is my job to give people permission to exercise their rights to liberty and the pursuit of happiness. It is ironic that for many of these people assuming a role of voluntary submission is the very act that helps them exercise their freedom. Basically the way I see it is that there are 350 million individual pursuits of happiness in this country alone, and who am I to say which ones of those are right or wrong (unless they are non-consensually harming someone’s well being or way of life)?  In fact, many people, including myself, have found empowerment through handing the reins over to someone else. Simply the act of reaching out to get what you want and to be fulfilled in the ways that you desire can be incredibly empowering. I felt many parallels to what I do and taking direction from Lindsay during our shoot. She is the expert with the camera, and I do as she says because I trust that the results will be great (which they always are!).

 It takes great strength to make yourself vulnerable and share that as a gift. This is not about the loss of control, it is about the choice to relinquish control and the resulting freedom that comes from that choice. The bottom line: there is power in submission. There is power in dominance. There is power in all of us as long as we decide to pursue these expressions of self that make us feel good, and do so with ideal intention and love.

These were the themes that were swirling around in my head as Lindsay and I shot together.

The path that I have taken from a meek young woman to a strong leader who shows others their potential. The path of a sexually liberated woman who exercises that freedom every day by empowering others to explore their own desires. The path of a dreamer who crossed paths with a brilliant artist and decided to take some photos to celebrate the freedom of expression that we have both found and continue to provide for others. Here’s to Lindsay. Here’s to the other trail guides; the women who have traveled these paths and now lead others toward their own empowerment and enlightenment. The world needs more of you, and I am proud to be part of your ranks.”

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Motherhood and Other Things

Motherhood, man, you think you know what you are getting yourself into and then bam! It is nothing like you expected.  I never wanted kids, I was never a kid person, but then I turned about 25 and that baby fever hit me like a ton of bricks. I instantly wanted and could think about nothing else.  We tried, we lost, we tried again and then I finally got my girl I had been waiting for.  So here I am thinking I have everything I want, a baby to snuggle, my husband by my side, cute baby clothes and a cradle next to the bed. “I’ve got this” I thought…

Ha! I look back now and just giggle. This motherhood thing is so much harder than it looks. Forget sleepless nights and spitup, the real struggle comes into play when you are trying to find where the hell you ended up in this mess of itty bitty clothing, a house strewn with toys, a constant  brigade of crumbs (so many crumbs, do they eveeeerrrrrrr end?!?!), trying to split your attention between your partner, your child (or children), your job, your friends, your family,  your home, your bills, your appointments, your partners appointments, your kids schedule…

Notice in that long list of things…not once did I mention YOU? Yeah ladies, this is the real shit right here.  Motherhood is hard.  Like really, really, really hard. Sure it is marvelous and I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world, but that doesn’t negate how hard it is.  Like, why can we not talk about how hard being a mom is without someone assuming that means that we don’t like to be a mom? Really? No. I love my kid, I talk about her all the time, but dear lord, is it ok if I focus on myself a little bit?

I always tell my husband, Justin, my biggest fear is to teach my daughter that life ends when you become a mom, that you don’t matter anymore and that everyone else does, and especially your kid.  I call bullshit. You still matter, you have to matter. Especially when you have kids. You have to show them that there is a life to keep living and that they are an incredible addition to it and give your life a whole new meaning. You have to show them you still care to exist. That once in a while, that mom bun is worth replacing with curls or a blow out, That the yoga pants and flip flops can be replaced with a slinky dress or sexy lingerie, and that underneath the mom the woman still exists.

You don’t need my permission, but you have it anyway. Be you. Find you. Celebrate you.

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Rachel found me through a professional photographers group I am a member of. I am always wicked nervous when I have to photograph another photographer because I know they are seeing and judging it all, the lighting, the editing, the process…Even more nervous when they are a really good photographer. Rachel wasn’t like that though. It was pretty awesome. She came in with a respect for the process, but more than that, respect for the art and the experience, and she let that photographer side of her go to just exist as the sexy woman she is in the moment. It was pretty awesome to be a part of that process. One of the things we talked about alot during the getting ready part of her process was how hard it is to be a mom. Rachel has a little one just like I do and is a hardcore hustling working mama on top of that.  She had reached that place where she was looking to find herself again. I had asked her to share a little bit about her journey and experience and here is what she had to say:

“Once you have a child you and your world change in so many ways. You’re a mom to a beautiful little baby, and to that baby you are their world. You become selfless and give up your every need to satisfy and soothe your baby.. you are up countless nights, you work harder than ever to provide and give your baby everything they need.. you get frustrated, you learn to balance motherhood, relationships, friends, and work, and you never fully figure it out. you never pee alone again, every day you are guessing on what to do, or if your decisions are right, all while continuing to hold that little bundle of joy in your arms. I was 22 when I became a mom, I was in a less than ideal relationship and was completely lost. That first year of motherhood was the most difficult year of my life..  A year after I had my child and my body went back to somewhat how it was before.. I looked in the mirror naked and loved my body for giving me this beautiful baby, and at the same time become upset for it looking as it did.. in my eyes my body was ruined. Nothing was back where it was.. my tummy would never be the same again.. I struggled with this for a long time and I would be lying if I said I still didn’t. I finally decided that I need images of myself to have around my home that made me feel amazing.. images that I would see and feel proud of.. images my daughter would see that would make her feel as though her mom loves her body, and she should love hers too. As women we are surrounded with body shaming in all forms. I want my daughter to love and embrace her body, and I Knew in order to teach her this I must first love and embrace my own. It took me a long time to find a boudoir photographer that was exactly what I was looking for. I wanted someone who empowers women and supports women in loving themselves as they are.  A photographer that photographs real women with real bodies who have curves and want to show them off. A photographer that would make me feel like I was stunning, and rocked the shoot! I wanted to feel empowered.. and confident, and sexy again. When I found Lindsay’s work I immediately fell in love. Her talents are exceptional and she is the best of the best in boudoir photography. Being a photographer my self I was very selective, I knew she was going to be the artist to photograph me! I went into the shoot with high expectations that Lindsay far exceeded! Erin did my makeup flawlessly, and Lindsay posed my body perfectly. I felt so comfortable from the second I walked in the door! During my shoot I felt like the most beautiful woman in the world. My flaws didn’t cross my mind, and I felt like I rocked the shoot.. Lindsay makes you feel empowered, loves with her whole heart, encourages and supports women to be who they are and feel sexy the whole way! I can now go into my room and see the pieces of art work that were created.. by my body.. I feel sexy, confident, and like a whole new person. My daughter is now being taught to love yourself as you are and be confident in yourself always. I will forever be grateful for Lindsay and Erin for making me feel and look as gorgeous as I do in these images. These are images that I will have for a lifetime and the experience I gained and how I now feel about myself is something that I will hold close to my heart for many years to come!”


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