`Boudoir New York - Self Love Experience - Albany - Saratoga Springs - Troy_0993

Photographed “That way” – Troy | Saratoga Springs |Albany | New York – Boudoir

Who else is as excited as me for February 7th??  All of this babes wardrobe was from our Lingerie Shop and we have since added over 500 new pieces PLUS our new girl power t-shirt line.

If you haven’t seen it yet CLICK HERE for a link to the event!

Ok,  so now we need to get into the nitty gritty of this session.

I think so many of us look into the lives of others as we see them through social media and just through being neighbors, fellow moms in the pick-up line, etc. but the truth is we truly never know what another woman is dealing with and that is why it is so important that we all continue to support each other.

I want to go on and on but sometimes the client can say it so much more powerfully than I can….read below to see The Self Love Experience from this #LRPBoudieBeauties point of view.

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“If we had hinges on our heads,
There wouldn’t be no sin.
‘Cause we could take the bad stuff out
And leave the good stuff in.

-Shel Silverstein

I remember the first time I heard this poem as a child, and the powerful image it created in my mind. It was an image I would subsequently obsess over for years to come. The idea that, if our head had hinges, we could simply pluck any bad thought and discard it was terrifying and freeing all at once. In principle, this should be an easy thing for all of us to do. Many of us strive to block out the negativity we project onto ourselves. Though, despite our best efforts the self-doubt, self-loathing, disgust, and the desire to be, feel or have things the we don’t, overpowers our better judgement and leaves us sad, wanting and hopeless.

I found myself feeling all of the above, and more, after having my daughter. Postpartum depression is real and it can be debilitating. I saw a counselor, took hormone regulating medication and thankfully, was able to recover the person I once was. For three challenging months I didn’t recognize myself. I was emotional, sad, and depressed. It was an extremely challenging time for me, but looking back I consider myself one of the lucky ones. It takes some mothers years to find themselves again.

It’s hard to pinpoint what exactly triggered my emotions when my daughter turned eighteen months old, but all the bad thoughts started to creep back in. Without any physical hinges to open up my head, reach in and remove the negativity taking over my brain, I did nothing but wallow in my funk.

As fate would have it, I met Lindsay a few months before this. Like many, I had stalked her social media pages dreaming of someday looking and feeling like the women in her photos. Confident, strong, and healthy. I reached out inviting Lindsay to be a guest on my podcast. I run an online nutrition and triathlon coaching business with my husband and it was important to me that our clients and podcast listeners got to hear her powerful “Self Love Experience” message. Selfishly, I needed to hear it too.

At the end of our interview, I told Lindsay I wasn’t quite ready, physically, to be photographed in “that way.” I justified that my body wasn’t where I wanted it to be post-baby and in a few months I would return when it was. The truth is I was terrified of not loving myself in her photos. One day, something compelled me to message Lindsay. It was a Friday and I needed something to spark the passion and love I had for myself, again. I asked her to pencil me in for the next available opening. Just a few minutes later, my phone pinged, and there was a message from Lindsay- someone had just cancelled their session for the upcoming Monday and if I wanted it, it was mine. It was meant to be!

The morning of the shoot I wasn’t scared or worried about what my body would look like. I gave myself completely to Randi, Natalie and Lindsay. I trusted them. Sure, I was vulnerable but I was also sexy and started to feel powerful and proud of who I was. It was the best thing I could have done for myself.

The fact is, we’re all going to have moments of weakness. We’ll all look in the mirror and not feel like we’re operating at our best on that particular day. But having my session, having these beautiful portraits in my camera roll and soon, hanging in my home are a constant reminder of all the women I am and am capable of being. Screw those damn hinges! I control what goes in and I am in charge of what I allow to be reflected out.” –  Mrs. T.

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