Receiving this blog was exactly the strength I needed for tomorrow. You see I have some pretty severe PTSD from my last surgery when Gaia, my now 5 year old daughter, was born. I had a terrible birth experience and have avoided dealing with some pretty awful women’s health issues since her birth.
It is meeting women like this #LRPBoudieBeauty that remind me what true strength is and feed me confidence through their grace to try and strive to be the same.
Though its just a routine procedure, for me, the fear is real, because my past experience was real. It took me over 5 years to be able to trust my body enough to go get the help I needed. So though this is something little for most, for me it is a turning point where I finally get a “Do-Over” and a chance to replace a traumatic experience with an empowering one. Because this time I AM in control.
The women I meet will never really understand how much I have suffered from anxiety and fear and just general getting in my own way over the years…but each woman I meet through LRP, each blog I am privileged to share, reminds me more and more why I need to continue to be brave. That I am surrounded by warrior women in my life that have survived so much more than I will ever have to.
If you want to read about true bravery and strength look no further than this incredible woman’s words below.
I honestly have to say that I was very reluctant about coming to the Loft, and really questioning in my mind if things were a little off color. Then I met you!
This is something that is totally out of character for me, but I trusted you. I trusted in your artistic ability. I had looked at the group postings and am thankful for the women that shared their journey with self-love experience, so I felt that it was important to share my journey. Sorry it took me so to get this to you.
Having this self-love experience was not something that I had originally intended but discovered in the end that I really needed. Growing older is challenging and not for the faint of heart. I no longer have the shape I use to and my body reflects the battle scars from a life lived. I have gone through many life events from childbearing, to losing a child, to losing a husband, to losing my parents, to losing family and friends, as well as surviving cancer.
Life’s experiences, therefore allows us the opportunity to grow, change and evolve. With my faith and this mantra I have weathered many a severe storm and made it to morning, As odd as it may sound, letting my hair become “my now natural color”, was a painful process which my husband and loved ones will tell you. Looking back, I can tell you that I felt that I was giving up on being young and resigning to the fact of being old. Silly, but true….
When I decided to follow through with this self-love experience, I was surprised at how things fell into place which reaffirmed to me that it was something that I was meant to do. I normally don’t like pictures of myself. I was surprised when I finally looked at them! I’m a pretty smoking hot senior citizen which will be interesting as a great anniversary present for my husband. When you reach a certain age you just look at each other and say, “remember when we were young”. And yes I don’t mind the color of my hair anymore.
As a young woman, my grandmother told me, that it was important that a woman should never give up all her mysteries at one time. As women we are multidimensional, diverse and with so many different facets. We are simple but complex. We can rise to any occasion with strength and courage as women have done throughout the years. We are the backbone of families, communities, nations and humanity.
When I finally looked at the teasers, I was surprised at what I actually seen. I saw the twinkle in my eyes that reminded me that I still see through the same eyes I did when I was 21. There was the sense of confidence of self as well as fun, adventurous and flirty.
A woman should never give up all her mysteries at one time.
It keeps things interesting and never boring.” ~ Patti
Hair and Makeup by Erin Marie Artistry
Styling: Styled by Randi